Thanks for your thoughful comment Tony. Actually, I see I did not communicate that wellin this post but Dex knew/knows very well how I feel. He knows the way I live my romantic life, he has known since we met. We talked/talk about it frequently. At some point I had to start living the way I believed, not just going along because it was fun and easy. At what point do you finally just DO instead of talk? I guess I had finally come to that point. I mean, he knew how I felt, he even assumed I was dating again, and we had very clear guidelines around when we told each other about other relationships etc., so it was ok- but when he started to get stressed about it- I sure wish he had come to me and not just let it get to the point of no return.