So many good things in this. I too never really knew that you could love like this. I too want to be open to possibilities even if traditional “reason” says it’s not right.
I’m one that jumped pretty quickly in, but I also accompanied that with so many books, and discussions and telling everyone how I felt and what I was doing. (I’m an “out loud processor!” LOL)
Keep doing you! It’ll all fall together, then change, then fall together again looking just a little more “right” each time!
Thanks for sharing this with us!